I am weak.

Yes, I am.

I may give off the impression that I am tough and strong, and I may intimidate a lot of people and scare them off. I may appear level-headed and in control. I may seem like the type of person you wouldn't want to mess with.

But in truth, I am weak. I crumble in the face of stress, and I cry my eyes out in my room when my sense of internal balance is threatened. I rely on my dad and my sisters and certain friends to cheer me up and urge me on when I'm down. I find it hard to say no when it is time to be firm. Sometimes I hold on when it is time to detach.

But you see, I try, I try very hard to be strong. I may be lucky to have good social support, but I know that the strength to keep me going will have to come from within me. There is no one better to be strong for me, than I myself.

It is hard, being strong. Trying to be strong.

So you see, I may be weak, but I am trying the hardest I can to be strong, to detach, to be in control not just of myself but of the situations I get myself into. I can tolerate having friends and family who rely on me for strength. But I have no room in my life for a partner who is weak.

I am already weak to begin with, so I do not want someone weaker. I want someone with the same zeal towards strength, someone who can detach as I want myself to, someone who can be in control not just of himself but also of the situations he gets into.

I do not want someone who will hamper me from gaining the strength I so desire for myself. Rather, I want someone who knows his priorities and his goals in life and is strong enough to work towards them, someone who knows how to weed out distractions and focus on what is fundamental, someone who can help me focus on what is fundamental.

So yes, if you are weak, if you will only weigh me down, get out of my life. I have no room in my life for you.